I have finally come to a point where I can journal to get through the days ahead and see positives because I get up everyday. It may not be as easy as it used to be but I am doing it. I try and understand that everyday I will deal with different issues as we all do. I also realized that I had most of my life and would gladly do it again because not matter what I had a heart that was full of love. At first it was hard and I learned how to get back up many times. But I always did maybe a little damaged in some way or another with another scar emotionally or physically.
The thing that makes us who we are is what we think we are and that can be decided by us or the circumstances in our life. That create feelings that we have to sort out within ourselves. It is not easy and we must learn tools to help us do this. I had many scars and was also broken in my eyes as I had let life and those in mine tell me what I should be.
Soon I realized I did not know who Cindy was I did not grow up get straight A's, did not have the comunication skills I needed. I was not able to express my feelings only new to feel I had failed. We all need love and support and there are no two of us alike. That is the downside and the Glory to it. We can be who ever we are if we look withing overselves. There are no rules except those created around you----- It took me 25 years to give myself a break from trying to be someone else and find myself and stop thinking every bad thing that happened to me I deserved it -------
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